Nagdidiwang nanaman ang mga boys...

Congrats to the Los Angeles Lakers. You're one game away from the semis. Hahahaha. :))

I miss...

While looking for pegs on how my room should look like after the makeover, I came across this...

...and immediately decided that when I get my own house, it should have this room and that view.

I definitely need a room makeover...

My bedroom currently looks like this:

Please pretend those aren't my bra. The balls above my cabinet are Carlo's.

To those who have been to my bedroom in the attic, yes, I don't live there anymore for the simple reason that when it's summer, it can get pretty hot in there... and when I'm drunk and tired, I don't want to climb all the way up to the 3rd floor.

Anyway, I realized that I needed a room makeover when I was talking to my dad about our gate (he painted it another color again). Now, I'm thinking of what color I should paint the walls, the door and the cabinet.

Originally, I wanted a pink and green room but my sister had hers painted in those colors.

Next color that popped in to my head was red. Red walls with white accent. My mom said red wouldn't work with a small room.

Then I thought of painting the door red. Like Brooke Davis' front door in One Tree Hill. But thinking about it, I only wanted to have a red door 'cause I was really in love with Lucas Scott and I wanted to be called the "girl behind the red door" because when Lucas was still in love with Brooke, that's what he called her. Boo. No to this idea.

Then all of a sudden, I didn't want red anymore. I wanted a white room with fuchsia pink accent. That's it. Walls are white. Cabinet is pink as well as the sheets and the mirror... It'll sorta look like that room up there but instead of purple, the accents are pink.

But first things first: I SHOULD BE SAVING UP FOR PAINT... (Bora muna bago pinturaaaaaa!)

2-2

I think you'll be needing this, boys. Medyo dehado ang LAL ngayon. 2-2 na...

(HAHAHA! :)) Nambwisit pa.)

Oo nga pala...

I'm downloading all these new songs for my iPod (I should really REALLY get a new one) and I realized that there are NO new songs by T.I. Okay, I just might be really outdated (God, I feel old) but I haven't heard my brother rant about T.I. since forever. I'm just wondering. Maybe he was proven guilty in that Illegal Possession of Machine Guns (My, my. That sounds so bad ass!) case and now he's in jail. I shall research in a while!

Can't wait for his first album/single from or after jail to come out. I personally think it'll be inspirational and bad ass at the same time.

I'm not really good at this blogging thing...

Most of the time, I wouldn't want all my shenanigans to be caught (since both my parents and everyone in the office are active in the Internet) and I don't have the time of day (lately) to update this place. Add that to the fact that I don't have my own computer in the office (yes, I don't) and most of the time, my siblings are on the computer at home.

Another reason I have is I spend most days of the week in another person's house and I'd rather make out with him than update my blog.

Hmmm... Now I know what the REAL reason is...

I might actually vote for him...

Wow.

I've been really busy these past few days, huh?

Carlo and I were singing this in Calatagan yesterday... I MISSED THIS SONG!

Everywhere
Michelle Branch

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Weekend Schmeekend.

I wanted to blog about this weekend just because it seems like a lot has happened and the weekend's still not over (it's just 9:15am, Sunday).

Friday, April 16

• Went to work at 9am and did the usual stuff.
• Made the timetable for Jayvee's project. Timetable gave me a headache.
• Went to Galle, lunchtime. Ate at KFC. Met up with Carlo and Trish there, too.
• Got the stitches from teeth extraction removed. Jumped for joy when I learned I can smoke again.
  
• Watched Confessions of a Shopaholic at the dentist's clinic while waiting for Trish and Carlo get their teeth cleaned.
• Went back to Galle and met up with The Lion.
• Ate at this Korean restaurant across Metrowalk. Didn't know what the name of the place is. Food tastes good but it will make your breath smell really bad after a few hours.
• Went to The Lion's den. Was supposed to have coffee at a coffee shop near their place with business partners to discuss the projects that are lined up for this year. Stayed home and watched TV instead.
• Business partner called and said they will pick us up and we ended up in Quiapo. Lifted everything up to Him at Quiapo church then walked a bit to buy mangos and suman.
• Off to Pasig before midnight.

Saturday, April 17

• Late dinner at Ado's then they brought me home. Got home by 1am.
• Saw the Facebook page that I ranted about here while waiting for The Lion to get home.
• Slept for 2 hours tops then off to Batangas.
• Didn't get to sleep during the trip either because everyone else was except Tatay. Didn't want him to be the only one who's awake.
• Slept and ate the whole time in the beach. Didn't get to swim 'cause my bikini top didn't have those pads that were supposed to "hide" your nipples. Didn't want to swim, anyway, so...
• Slept again on our way home.
• Got home and talked to The Lion (who woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning) for a bit then slept again. Felt really tired even if I did nothing but sleep and eat in Calatagan.

Sunday, April 18. Only plan I have for today is to go to The Lion's den for his folks' anniversary dinner. Still don't know what time.

I just wanted to take note of this weekend. It's hella tiring.

Kapal. Grabe.

Pag tapos kong akuin yung rason kung bakit nangyari yung nangyari, malalaman kong matagal na pala akong ginawang tanga?

Napakatuso talaga kahit kailan.

Putanginang yan.

(Edited: April 18, 2010)

Why?

CAUSE I CAN. ♥

After 3 months...

Yes, I do visit my ex's Facebook page just for the hell of it... Okay, maybe I wanted to know if he's got a new girl. And who the girl is.

So anyhoo, I was reading his conversation with one of his friends and he was telling her how his new girl is rich and how she got him all kinds of stuff when a realization struck me:

I am genuinely happy for him.

Not the pinilit-lang-maging-masaya happy or the sarcastic happiness. I really am happy he found that someone who will take care of him. I've always thought that a part of me would be sad or it will hurt a bit but it didn't.

I actually am happy for him. ☺ YAY ME! ☺

I SHALL WATCH THIS IN 3D!

Jill, feeling ko matutuwa ka sa picture na'to...

Old school Johnny Depp and Kate Moss. :)

(Photo grabbed from http://awfulsilence.tumblr.com)

HAHAHA! I'M SUCH A SISSY.

I'VE "UNPUBLISHED" THE 10 THINGS I LOVE ABOUT YOU POST.
HAHAHA!

I'm not taking any chances. I wouldn't want to stir up a controversy in the office...

(Yes, saying this is better than publishing that blog entry because the said blog entry was really blunt and straight to the point. Teehee.)

I was amazed by this post by Rico Blanco

Okay, not really "amazed"... Naisip ko lang: COOLIO! HE'S SOOOOO HONEST! :)

10 Things I Love About YOU.

Okay. I now have to admit that I am currently crazy about this guy. He's not THE Chuck Bass that usually catches my eye or the Nate Archibald every girl dreams of having. He's more of a Dan Humfrey. A normal dude with a sentimental heart and a to-die-for skill in writing and I love all the small things he does. Although he doesn't seem to notice that he's doing it.

1. I love the way he looks at himself at the mirror.
2. I love it when he squeezes my hands tighter when I try to stretch out my fingers (my fingers go numb when we hold hands for a long time) or when I get awkward because my hand is all pasmado from holding his.
3. I love the way he scratches his nose even if it is not itchy.
4. I love it when he sings/whispers songs to my ears when we lay in the dark together.
5. I love the way he "sways" me when I hug him. It feels like we're slow dancing (minus the music).
6. I love the way he hugs me tighter when the mornings grow colder.
7. I love the face he makes when he gets annoyed whenever I watch him cook.
8. I love the way he buttons his polo.
9. I love the way he scratchess his head when someone puts him on the hot seat.
10. I love the way he looks at me when our faces are too close to each other.

Actually, there are a whole lot more I love about him. But those up there are the top 10... Fine, I am madly in love with this man. ♥ There. I said it.
Edit: Issue 'to pag may nakabasa sa office...

I changed the title of the blog and still used Jill's banner thingamajiggy because I can.

Found it!

Finally found that Enchanted soundtrack I was looking for. Thanks, boredom, for bringing me to Anna Abola's Livejournal account where I saw the title of this song. ☺

So Close
John McLaughlin

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close togehter

And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...

I can't help but repost this...

(Photo grabbed from http://killersmile07.livejournal.com/)

The worst combination EVER...

Post-tooth extraction pains

and

Pre-menstrual syndrome

Paradigm shift #1: At least my teeth are all better now. If the dentist didn't pull the teeth out, I might be suffering even more right now.

Paradigm shift #2: At least I know I am not pregnant.

You shaved your head off. I'm sooooooo proud of you.

Yay! :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH, JILL, FOR MAKING MY BLOG LOOK LIKE A BLOG!

I shall now grant you one wish. :)

Thanksies again and I looooooove you!

LOL.

Dated: December 21, 2009

The picture I commented on was taken during my night out with The Boys (and Kat) last December 2009 at LAX, exactly 2 days before The Lion and I had THE talk.

I used to call him "Kuya" then we had THE talk then all of a sudden I don't call him "Kuya" anymore. ♥

My head's still aching but WTH...

Two-hour teeth extraction was a success, thank goodness!

But right now, I'm going through the worst hell. I haven't been in this much pain before.

The doctor gave me a lot of instructions. Here are the few that I remember:

• No smoking for 5-7 days. (Boo!)
• Ice pack should be ALWAYS available.
• Soft and cold food lang should be given to me.
• No strenuous activities (As if I have one... Oh, wait! I DO! *evil laugh*)
• Antibiotics every 8 hours and painkillers ever 4 hours.
• I can't open my mouth too wide.
  
• I can't play with the thread inside my mouth. (Tempting siyang laruin, really.)
• No horseplaying with anyone. (Oh geez...)
  
• 2-3 days off from work (YEAHUH.)

Actually, the last one is the only item in the list that I approve of, but not totally because that would mean I wouldn't see The Lion 2-3 days more than it should.

Back to the dentist on Friday to take the stitches out then on May 1st for the extraction of the 2 remaining wisdom teeth.

Good luck.

Yeeeeees... Achievement.

I HAVEN'T SMOKED SINCE YESTERDAY. ☺

Question.

Wait, does a vision board have to be a board, BOARD?

Or can I make one via Photoshop then print it out?

I will SERIOUSLY make my vision board now that I'd have to stay home and nurse my aching teeth.

I'm so sorry, Chuck, but Nate's sooooo adorable here! ♥

(Photo grabbed from http://dearjan.tumblr.com)

Rico Robles-inspired.

Maligayang Araw ng Magiting! ☺

Heard him say that yesterday afternoon while he was signing off from his show on RX.
It was honestly cute.

I am a sissy.

I will get 2 of my wisdom teeth extracted on Saturday.

They might have to sedate me before they can get me to sit on the dentist's chair.

Anesthesia will be injected, yes, but I don't like "feeling" the bones and the gums tearing up. Nakakangilo even if you can't feel anything.

I can't even say it...

ITO YUNG MGA TAONG SUMISIRA NG IMAHE NG HIPHOP AND RNB SA PILIPINAS.

Thug Love? Not even close.

What the hell? He's actually doing that in public?! Ugh.

HIPHOP?!
This one made me laugh hard.

Oo na, cool na kayo.

(Photos taken from http://fuckyeahajeje.tumblr.com)

I CAN'T WAAAAAAAAAAIT!!!

If ever, this will be the first movie that I will watch in 3D because I think that it will be worth it.

Up-close.

These were the "revisions" my officemate made to my Facebook account that literally got me sweating.

I've uploaded the previous picture thru my phone...

...and I've realized only now that the picture won't look the way I wanted to so I will be posting another version later. Hahaha! :))

Yes, I was affected by it that much that's why I will upload it again. I wanna show the world what made me cry (almost!) a while ago...

I will kill my officemate for doing this. I almost fainted when I saw this...

That felt good...

Talked to my Mameh during lunch break regarding my concerns. I can't help telling her that it was unfair for me because they evaluated me on just one project.

"Kapansin-pansin ka kasi nung araw na yun..." Yes, I know. Because everyone's talking about what has been happening to me and The Lion. Talk of the town, kumbaga. So anyway, I let that go because I knew that waaaay before the shoot.

It was also unfair for me that they've evaluated me AFTER Tuguegarao and Bataan. I don't want to sound arrogant or anything but they let me manage those projects without my Mameh and everything turned out well. They even told me I delivered perfectly that time.

As a PA, I'm not that much harag during a shoot. I usually just ask the client for food and water and I call the van and log shots and all those small things. So what I don't understand is after all the shoot I've been with (one of our major clients brought me to hell lot of places), they tell me ONLY in that fateful shoot that I wasn't doing anything. I mean, is it my fault I move quickly and finish all my responsibilities during the shoot much earlier than everyone else?

Like what I told Mameh: "Mas okay na saking sabihin sa akin na 'Di ka na namin isasama sa shoot kasi wala ka namang ginawa dun kundi makipaglandian' kesa sabihing 'Di ka na namin isasama sa shoot kasi di mo nagagawa mga kailangan mong gawin' kasi seryoso ako sa trabaho ko and I make it a point na maaccomplish ko lahat bago ako makipaglandian."

I got really pissed but I'm good now. I talked to her and I heard what she has to say.

KAILANGAN KONG RUMACKET SA LABAS KASI OBVIOUSLY, DI AKO MAKAKAPAGSHOOT NGAYON SA AMIN KASI DI KO DAW NAGAGAMPANAN ANG RESPONSIBILIDAD KO.

Just when I thought he forgot what day it is today...

...he sent me the most pleasant surprise I've had in the longest time. ☺

Thanks! ♥

Back to work again tomorrow...

So, The Lion will be out the whole of next week. That means I will be working 100% tomorrow. I know what you're thinking. I SHOULD BE working 100%. Well, whenever kasi The Lion's around, I spend, like, 20% of my time looking his way. HA-HA!

(Hope The Lion won't see this or else he will KILL me.)

There are things in life you need to let go of for you to be happy...

Right on, Father-from-the-chapel-in-Megamall!

My pride is eating me up alive...

Mom: Ayun oh, 3,500.00 lang yung driving school. 5 days yun.

Ale: *dies deep inside* Nah, I gave that one up years ago.

I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND THIIIIIIS!
I GIVE UP!

My teeth hurt real bad...

The heaviest cross I was - and still am - carrying would have to be my wisdom TEETH. Yes, teeth because 3 of them are growing at the same freakin' time!

Damn, I wish all of these would end soon... Holy Week's almost over.

Of resignations and going overseas...

I was once again trapped in the situation where my parents gang up on me regarding my work at TVStyle Video.

They - along with my ex-boyfriend - have been forcing me to resign from TVS since I got there. My parents don't want me there because TVS is not ABS-CBN or Globe or Nestle. Get it? My ex-boyfriend doesn't want me there because he said he doesn't trust the people there.

I have to admit that there was a point where I wanted to resign myself. The friendships I made were great but there was a point where my work has become so routinary that I wanted to quit. But everything changed when 2010 came. There were these seminars that I attended (Law of Attraction, Who Moved My Cheese?, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People) and books that I read (Rich Dad, Poor Dad) that made me change my mind.

So obviously, right now, I'm sticking with TVS.

At lunch a while ago, we were talking about my cousins who went to Dubai 2 weeks ago. They were telling me that Hongkong and Singapore were good places to work since a minimum of 45-minute plane ride was needed to get to those countries from the Philippines. I told them that personally, I didn't want to leave this shithole. (Yes, I admit this place wouldn't be better in the next 20 years but that doesn't mean that I will be leaving.)

So anyway, they went "Kailangan stable na na company yung pinagtatrabahuhan mo, blah blah blah..." I walked out at that statement. Which apparently wasn't a good idea because I had the chance to prove what I had to prove pero I let it go.

Okay, I must admit that I just didn't want the conflict that will arise if I go "E ayoko nga e..." on them. I'm a sissy like that. But I should've said something. At least they wouldn't have thought I didn't have the conviction to fight for what I believe in.

I will be leaving TVS. Just not now.

April Fool's...

Tell me what you gon' do.

ACT A FOOL!